I feel like journaling lately, although strangely, when I get in front of the computer screen, all of the thoughts I’ve had, all of the things I’ve felt worth recording for posterity, seem to fade away… or more accurately, they seem like too much, and too abstract to capture on this little electronic screen… but I’ve been feeling creative… and curious and interested in everything… I took a walk in Reyerson Woods today and I must’ve seen 12 different kinds of spiders… all of the really cool… nature is unbelievably beautiful, it really is perfect… it’s exactly how it’s supposed to be… so balanced… so right… but so cruel… to everyone who thinks humans are cruel and evil… what about the spider… the beautiful perfect spider who entraps little flying insects, and then wraps them up alive, and sucks the life out of them… that’s very humane… I don’t know… I saw “District 9” tonight, a great little work of movie making/story telling (probably partly what’s got me feeling very creative right now) and it’s kind of about that… how humans are horrible and cruel… but man… that’s life isn’t it? Spiders trap things, immobilize them and eat them alive, humans grow chickens and then toss them arbitrarily into grinders, alive… and then, who knows… they probably feed that shit back to the chickens. So, I guess that’s part of the balance… you have horrible pain and death on one hand, but that’s part of the perfection, you need that shit for the balance… anyway… I think I might try to go ahead and start writing these journals more regularly, and posting them on my anonymous blog… which I just did.